Lost Without You

It's been 3+ months since I've had working Internet in my apartment... it's been so hard. Well the first month was the hardest... the detox period. The #1 thing I missed was the music... discovering new artist online and downloading them was painful. The 2nd thing I missed was my blog!!! Even if only 1 person looks at it a month it's still worth it. It's fun and a way for me to share all the little things that interest me... #3 was sidereel.com I used to watch all my shows there cause I won't buy cable. I'm a hard core since episode 1 SKINS fan and well I missed the entire 4th season of skins! A piece of me broke off into little slag ashes when I realized this TODAY! An whats worse is I read a SPOILER that said Freddie dies or goes missing giving the illusion of death... and that the season end so crappy it's enough to stop watching the show. I hope it's not true!!!! Any way I'm back on the saddle with much to make up for!

Breaking Crowns

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheCrownsMusic

So I was just sent a youtube link from the band to check out their videos and outta the 3 they have up this one is their "crown" jewel so to speak. The video in itself is an inspiring, hipster delight. It's also the song with the most unique sound, the lyrics are nothing to write home about but all in all I really like this band and this song is Amazing. Plus the video is just beyond!

The End Of Business Socks

Why? Why? ..... ???? After only two seasons flight of the conchords is over? :(

Leftovers

Guilty!

I've been following this case since it first broke and I can hardly put to words the sorrow and stress it's brought to my own heart and mind while the following went to trial and then were eventually convicted of killing Meredith Kercher. This was a terrible crime and while I fear the real truth of what happened the night of Meredith's murder will forever be a mystery I do feel a sense of relief and peace now for her and her family. I've always looked upon the evidence as well as the relationship that Amanda Knox had with the victim and seen her as the most guilty party. However newer evidence came into play during their trials that made me question the extent of her involvement but I do believe based on the evidence and my intuition that she played a major role in her friends death and while she wasn't the one to physically kill her, she did bring the killers to her door intentionally. I hope that all of these three people seek redemption and enjoy their time in prison!Above all though I think justice was served to Meredith Kercher and I wish the best for her surviving family!

Mosaic Abstract

The above artwork is all by Kathleen Jones, It's amazing isn't it!

Love Yourself

Okay so something happened today that really pissed me off. At first you know I was like so what, I could care less what this skinny chick thinks. whatever. Then soon after a few other people jumped in it and started calling me a whale and saying I was insecure cause I only had 1 body shot on this website right and I stood my ground and was like I've got curves and brains and I'm content so keep on running your mouth it's not going to weigh me down like the hate in your hearts. I was happy with that line lol and you know eventually it stopped and I was determined to stay till they all left right cause no one is going to run me off!

Then you know I actually started to feel bad and just got real depressed there for a minute like shit it just got me down you know and then I got mad like who the hell are these stupid ignorant people to get me down on myself. I'm a good person, I'm fun and I've got a great personality and I'm cool with everyone I do my best to not judge anyone and I encourage diversity and uniqueness and you know I am pretty content and secure with myself so why did a 20 minute conversation with a bunch of hateful strangers get me so down?

I wish I had the answer but it really fired me up that those people did get to me. So yea I'm overweight, so what. I'm still beautiful and I still feel sexy and love my body, how many skinny girls with near perfect bodies can say they love their bodies? I have friends of all shapes and sizes and I tell you what when I go shopping with them it's always my skinny friends that break down in the dressing room or go into an immediate impenetrable depression when they have to go up a size in jeans. Now that tells me that women of all shapes and sizes and weights have some type of body insecurities and that we all feel the pressure from the media and our culture to be thin.

It's easier for a bigger girl to come to terms with her weight cause she has more cushion to fall back on but for a skinner girl 5 pounds is the difference between beautiful and disgusting. I feel for all women that go through this. What we all need to do as females is learn to except or bodies the way they are, whether you are a naturally skinny girl that can't gain weight or a big boned girl that can't loose weight. If we were all meant to be the same size we would be but just like there are different colors and shapes of fruit and vegetables there are different colors and shapes of beautiful women in this world and we need to embrace ourselves and love our bodies and not break each other down!

So I'm actually glad this happened today because yes It got me down for a minute but I got back up stronger and more confident in myself. I wish more women could learn to love their bodies and to see the beauty that is in them that is only magnified when you believe in yourself and love yourself. I don't care if you are 100 lbs. or 300lbs. you are beautiful and should love your body!

~These photo's are from Women En Large a lovely collection of nude photographs of large women by Laurie Toby Edison~

Lady Momsen?

Yea so I saw this very uncharacteristic photo of Lady GAGA and I had to take a double look cause for a minute I could have sworn it was goth inspired, barbie framed Taylor Momsen of Pretty Reckless and Gossip Girl. Do you see what I see? Or is it just me?

Things That Shape Me

Lyrics That Mean Everything & Nothing

Bon Iver – Blood Bank

Well I met you at the blood bank

We were looking at the bags

Wondering if any of the colors

Matched any of the names we knew on the tags

You said "see look that’s yours!

Stacked on top with your brother's

See how the resemble one another

Even in their plastic little covers"

And I said I know it well

That secret that you knew

But don't know how to tell

It fucks with your honor

And it teases your head

But you know that its good girl

Cause it’s running you with red

Then the snow started falling

We were stuck out in your car

You were rubbing both of my hands

Chewing on a candy bar

You said "'ain’t this just like the present

To be showing up like this"

AS a moon waned to crescent

We started to kiss And I said...

I know it well

That secret that we know

That we don't know how to tell

I'm in love with your honor

I'm in love with your cheeks

What's that noise up the stairs babe?

Is that Christmas morning creaks?

And I said I know it well

I know it well...

Fiona Apple – The Way Things Are

I wouldn’t know what to do with another chance

If you gave it to me

I couldn’t take the embrace of a real romance

It’d race right through me

I’m much better off the way things are

Much, much better off, better by far, by far

I wouldn’t know what to say to a gentle voice

It’d roll right past me

And if you chalk it up you’ll see I don’t really have a choice

So don’t even ask me

I’m much better off, the way things are

Much, much better off, better by far

So keep on calling me names, keep on, keep on

And I’ll keep kicking the crap till it’s gone

If you keep on killing, you could get me to settle

And as soon as I settle, I bet I’ll be Able to move on

How can I fight, when we’re on the same side?

Too Little, Too Late

I know what I know...

nothings set in stone

a smile can heal more than you'd think

you never really know anybody

even though we pretend to we never really give up

some people leave forever

sometimes you have to fall to feel alright

hearts don't think; they feel

a scar is just that a scar

love can't be erased

pain can't be forgotten

without our past we have no future

sticks and stones don't really hurt as much as words from a lover

we wouldn't know good if we didn't know bad &

The biggest life lessons are learned too late...

Not Your Average Art Show

AJ Fosik Art AboveDreamland of the bizzare...Intestinal American Art Above Outside Inside Art
This above piece is made of Pine Cones, Seeds and Rubber Bands, how cool is that!

The Still Point In The Turning World, I'm not sure why but I kinda love this!